it's been a big bummer for us that we haven't been able to run like we "want" (i use quotes cause we never necessarily want to run. but, we do want to train...if that makes sense). needless to say, we were scared to run. but, as we were writing on our hands before, han remembered
"There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear..."
1 John 4:18
[if i had to describe what i see in hannah on a day to day basis it would be her quiet strength. i am amazed at her courage and assurance. she has an air about her that is calm but strong. thanks for being the level-headed one, han. even lately on these hard days, you are strong.]
sunday was an incredible running day. i can't describe it generally so i will go mile by mile...
[mile one]: confident. admiring our steady pace. enjoying the scenery. the sun is setting.
[mile two]: harder than usual. i have to pee. crap we still have to run 5 more of these. stop to text han's mom that we will be late for dinner.
[mile three]: potty break in the bushes. wow we still have 4 more miles. my breathing is steady but i am bored. so i pray. "Lord awaken my soul. Holy Spirit, meet us here. be the force that perpetuates our bodies forward. for your glory, Jesus." wow, still haven't gone very far. (look at hand) "Jesus, be with libby. let her know how beautiful she is (and how hot she is with her pixie cut). give her motivation to continue to seek after you. continue to heal her body." i'm tired. i can see the 4 mile mark. "hannah, I have no idea how I am going to go 3 more."
[mile 5]: "Lord, make me move. I am tired. this stinks but this isn't about me. awaken my soul. awaken something inside of me that compels me to keep running..." i realize that i am moving/running quickly and effortlessly...something i have never experienced up until this point... like a force inside me was moving me and i was just there to witness it. runner's high? no. Holy Spirit? yes.
-turn off music-
[mile 6] prayers for han
[mile 7] prayers for two friends. i feel alive.
it's hard to put it into words but i will continue to try,
J
YES.
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